Bodybuilders suffer from a very specific type of body dysmorphia – the inability to satisfy one’s size expectations. As a bodybuilder, you can never be too muscular. There are bodybuilders who have arms bigger than the upper legs of most average men, and yet they still need more and more. Those individuals look themselves in the mirror and never find satisfaction.

Bertil Fox was one of those guys. His physique was out of this world, but he wasn’t satisfied. In the video below (near the 6th minute), the narrator tells a story about Bertil Fox’s inability to be content with his look.

This brings a logical question – why are we trying to fill an emotional emptiness with muscles?

The Ego is Always Hungry

Everybody is familiar with 666 – the number of the beast or the devil. However, it’s not that simple. The real key is kept hidden once again.

666 = 6 + 6 + 6 = 18 = 1 + 8 = 9

The real number of the beast, or should I say one of them, is 9.

9 is a unique number also known as the number of the ego.

When you add 9 to something, you always go back to the starting point. I know this sounds a little complicated, but it’s actually pretty easy to understand with a few examples.

9 + 1 = 10 →1 + 0 = 1

You added 9 to 1 and as result you got the same thing because 10 = 1 + 0 = 1

9 +2 = 11 → 1 + 1 = 2

You added 9 to 2 and as result you got the same thing – 11; 11 = 1 + 1 = 2

9 + 3 = 12 → 1 + 2 = 3

9 + 4 = 13 → 1 + 3  = 4

9 + 5 = 14 → 1 + 4 = 5

9 + 6 = 15 → 1 + 5 = 6

9 + 7 = 16 → 1 + 6 = 7

9 + 8 = 17 → 1 + 7  = 8

9 + 9 = 18 → 1 + 8 = 9

9 + 10 = 19 → 1 + 9 = 10

….

9 + 56 = 65 → 6 + 5 = 11 = 56 ( 5 + 6 = 11)

When you multiply 9, you always get 9 as an end result.

Example:

9 x 2 = 18 → 1 + 8 = 9

9 x 3 = 27 → 2 + 7 = 9

9 x 4 = 36 → 3 + 6 = 9

9 x 5 = 45 → 4 + 5 = 9

…

9 x 54 = 486 → 4 + 8 + 6 = 18 = 1 + 8 = 9

9 is the ego number. When you add ego to something, you always get the same thing in return because you’ve added nothing. There’s no extra value.

At the same time, when you multiply 9 by whatever, you always get 9. Or in other words, multiplying the ego by whatever only gives you ego. You never create anything new – it’s always the same illusion and deception.

So, what does this have to do with body dysmorphia? I’m glad you asked.

When you start lifting to fill an emotional void with muscles, you are only going to get the same thing no matter what. The result will never change regardless of how much muscle tissue you add to your frame. Underneath that muscle shield, it’s still the same insecure boy. The only way to fix this is to let the mind evolve along with your body. Otherwise, you will remain a prisoner of base level consciousness.